Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Thoughts about Pending Hearing on Motion to Extend Time for Appeal

In less than one week, I will be faced with Judge Roberts in regards to my motion to extend time for my Appeal. Unfortunately, based on what I have experienced in Family Court, I am not confident in winning this hearing without an attorney IF at all.

A part of me feels completely stuck and trapped in a whirlwind of such hatred against me as I try to sort out my feelings to why Judge Roberts would repeatedly ignore my plights for help since 2006 which started as a domestic violence case.

What is it that I am doing wrong besides being financially destitute? I have repeated asked the courts to tell me what I have done so wrong to be DENIED visitation with my children for the better part since September 2007. NO ONE ... No Judge ... No Court ... has ever told me why the relationship between myself and my children have been pretty much short of completely severed?

As a protective mother trying to protect her children from abuse, I went from having a restraining order to being forced to lift it to almost never seeing your children again for no explanation as to why.  I have NEVER been declared an unfit parent and NEVER has the court had any safety concerns with the children in my care.

I am now threatened with jail time for up to six months and receive the kind of orders I have been given yet those same rules have NOT applied to the opposing party who has repeatedly testified under oath his blatant refusal to comply with any orders since 2006 with NO sanctions ... NO penalties ... and NO justice. This has given me nightmares with ongoing panic attacks and a host of other physical issues that are hindering my progress due to the chronic stress and constant threats I have been living with NO relief.

I have no idea how to appease this judge and satisfy her hunger and blatant bias and get her to see that I am just a grieving mother who is faced with surmounting life circumstances.

I have no idea how to comply with the orders she is seeking for $80 a week in child support on estimated $10k a year on income plus restitution for HIS legal fees.

I am also the POA for my gravely ill mother who has been in the hospital for the last ten out twelve months and almost died twice.  Judge Roberts declared that I made a "choice" under the POA to care for my mother when she was declared medically indigent instead of abiding by her order. 

Yet I was denied a penny for the $135k in legal fees I incurred as a result of HIS deliberate contempt of preventing me from seeing my children or having any contact with them for over 90% of the court ordered visitation and phone calls. I have not seen my children now since August 3, 2011 when my uncle died and my ex used my uncle's death as an excuse to stop visitation despite court order. That alone is very upsetting for any parent.

Can someone please help me understand and how to NOT BE HUMAN so I can comply with this judge's order and try to reclaim my life again without the feeling of this constant neuse around my neck?

I wish I hit the lottery because what I am seeing more clear than ever is that JUSTICE ONLY occurs with those who have the most money to spend.

I am saddened at the hundreds of thousands of dollars my ex has constantly battered me with in legal fees ... most of it trying to defend myself in court when if he cared at all for his girls, he would take the money he is spending and forcing me to spend and put it towards my children's education. The amount spend in excess of $200k is enough to pay for their education.

Why doesn't any judge see the battering this man is doing?

How can I comply with this judge's order with the income I make and NOT go to Jail on May 15th for as upwards of 30 days to six months per her order.

How can I fight this case which is CURRENTLY still in appeal and fight the double standard as if two cases when it is one that is being appealed PRO SE?

Can anyone answer this question for me?

Will this judge approve this motion to extend time for the appeal or will I be denied as over 90% of my motions have been denied.